Currently Playing Apparitions of Melody By Kids in the Way see related

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All I can say is praise God I am still alive!!! This is my second major call accident, and I walked out with-out a scratch. I mean why am I soo special I walked out twice with out a scratch. Man God has to have something really special in plan for me thats all I got to say.  Wow , thanks be to gGd.  Yah and all before spruce lake.  Can't wait.  I got some crappy memeries to face, but other than that it is going to be awsome. I soo love working with Kids. Yah pretty much gone for 3 months , and only going to see my gf and friends 3 times out of those 3 months. That is the way I want it. I made a horrible mistake by seeing someone virtually every week-end and ruining my Spruce Lake experience. Can't wait to have fun and change lives I hope.  Well enough blabbering, Soo board with out a job still till the end of the week becuase of the accident.  And rrr my poor baby billy bob, my ford tempo. It is done for.  It would cost over 1000 dollars to fix. I am going to miss the bumper stickers the most.  Waaa, oh well now I get a real car and get to put some real friggen awsome audio. Ahh a new car , hopefully this car will work a heck of alot better. Peace out ed

Currently Playing A Chorus of Obliteration By The Showdown see related

Here it 10 am and I just woke up. I love it being out of school. My gf was with me till 2:30 A.M.Ii am fianlly out of the living hell of p.b.u. Ii swear that would be one of my first tourments if I were to go to Hell. I don't like it, but God say stay, so I am roughin it out still. hopefully next semister will be better???  God has been putting me in uncomfotable spots lately, but I know God can't make a mountain I can't climb, sound sliek a country song??. Yah aquire the fire last week-end was sick,it was sooo awsome.    I was youth leader, it was weird bein aleader, I never thought I would be in such a position.  Yah was cool aobut isues that came up this week-ned such as smokin.  FOr some reason people like to coem to me aobut their problems. I gues I am good at giving advise?:? I don't think so , but I am a good listeneer. I gues one fact is that I have been through a lot, so. Yah friday we got lost in down town Baltimore and eventully got in. Wow when we got in there, there was an alter call for being saved/recommitments.Wow the whole bottom of the arena was packed with people.  That was cool to see. Then the hotel was sick. Me and my youth group wrestled till like 4 am. Man my youth group is soo agressive.  The fire alarm went off in the hotel again, ahh last year that happeded at ocean city, md but this time it was not our fault.  Yah the hotel security was jerks, we were soo close to gettin kicked out.  Thats my youth group for yah. It was soo much fun seriosuly. then what got me the most waas askin forgiveness for others. Well I kind of asked forgiveness for someone to God before, but did not truly mean it.  Then there wow, I just balled my eyes out and asked for forgivness, wow God breaks me down soo much sometimes. I become an emo kid to God, it is weird I never htought I would be this faithful to god as I am now. Yah so I gave forgiveness to someone and it felt soo much better. Then the newsboys came on. I love them now, wierd a metal head like me liking them soo much. I knew every song. Breakfast was the best!!  Yah then the ride home was fun. Me and my youth group kids wrestled for a little in the back of the fan, man they are crazy.  Well I gues the next thing. the burning bush cafe. wow on wenesday God provided soo much. I was praying that God would show he is faithful and attendence would be more than 100. Wow it was 182 with out the bands. That was such an answer to prayer.  People came form 3 ohurs away to see the bands!! Yah there was last tuesday  from pa, spoken, kids in the way, and staple. I liked staple the best, but that it is because they are hard-core.  No one really liked them, I loved them.  The pit was awsome, the Wells brothers all fell at one point and they are strong guys. The pit was sick, not thrashing just moshing, oh well, I am liking thrashin more now at days.  Let alone the testimonies the bands made, wow the spirit was there.  The prayers that were said were soo heart felt. God has been great to me lately, and strentined me soo. Yah we made 500 bucks on that show. Yah odug went , i hope he was changed somehow there. I am going to miss the next hard-core show, I fel depribed for spruce lake. Spruce lake is soo much more worth it. I know God will use me there and it is going to rock.  youth week is still my favorite.  This time I am ready for mission impossible   .  Now I knew the area better.  Soo many cool things are going to happend there. Spruce lake has been in my prayers for a while.  Yah the dinner at youth week , still trying to think of a good costume, or maybe I should go all out formal.  But formal is me lately, my clothin style is more laid back now. Hmm any ideas tell me. Well back to cleanin my room, hey this is not an emo entry. Sweet. Peace out god bless, ed

Oh yah purple door. I am soo going. It is the last day of camp, but the burning bush is adverstising there. soo many good bands and I will be at the stand selling food and drinks. Oh well I am commited ot the ministry, just as long as I see the show down and anberlin or relient k i am good.  The line up for purple door is soo sweet!!!

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Currently Playing A Call to the Martyrs By Mortal Treason see related

Well to begin I guess I like ocuntry music now. It applys ot my life. I am trying new music and getting out of my "freak" bubble.  I mean the song by brooks and dunn "its getting better all the time", yah reminds me of stuff look it up and find out yourself.  The music is just like emo music just with a different was soo much fun. I never thought I would say that but. i like it.  Also yah i went country line dancin on sat at montana west.  it was awsome, i looked like and idiot and liked it. i dressed like myself in black and had a cow boy hat. It was fun. i learned how to line dance. it was fun. i rebeled against school and had 2 beers , oh no school might kick me out. I am a firm believer in drinking in moderation, dosen't it say somewhere that biblically???  Yah this stupid school, philadelphia biblical  university, I soo wish God had not called me here.  RRRRRRRRR!!!!!  I hate all these rules, but i am tired of fighting God.  Why he put me here I don't know or wh y God let my heart get broke in the begining, i have no friggen Idea. I wish i knew, but what I do know is that God will bless me in the end.   Part of me wishes I was in a secular college, I could be more real there and be a god wittness there.Oh well I hate this school how everyone thinks they are all these "holyier than thou" kind of people.  We are all sinners.  I hate it how they look down apon u when u tell your past. Aren't u a new creation in christ???  I am real about stuff and that pisses poeple off.   And al lot of the close friends I got to know are leaving, my roomate and rachael.  God called them elsewhere, why not me??? OOh well, God has me here for a reason, I got to have a better perspective on this stupid school. Still prayin to god to help me find an off campus appartment. i hate all these rules, friggen room check twice a week,rr.  Anyway another emo thing, I can't get rid of old memeries of my ex's.  For example I am about to go to my g-mom's beach house eventually this summer. I got memeries all the way from doin the nasty to cuddling an extra night with someone i loved dearly when it rained hard, and then later killed their families transmisson. I pray to God to get rid of these memeries, but he won't let me.  I hate it and sometimes wish I had that person back to expernce those memories again, but then agian people change. I never seem to do anything too bad in the realationships when the women leave me.  I am a great christian guy. Why does God curse us with the dating game? they always say lets be friends and we can still chat and talk aobut our problems and stuff like that. Fat chance!!! Yah they talk to you for like half a year once a week then they find other friends and forget you. They always say when u need someone to talk to call me, what  a load of crap, not you tina, just others.  RRR ex's oh well at least I am real and do not change, and if I do it is for the better lately.  Well God I hope you end this datin game soon, I am fed up with it, and getting to know someone soo well and talking about everything and then they leave and do not give you the time of day.  I hope this changes.  Well Tina in all of this i love you and i know for now you feel the same way, I hope this does not change, unlike so many of my ex's.Anyway I feel soo much better, ahhh.  Hope the burning bush cafe goes good on wen, and aquire the fire this week-end. Oh and my finals too. well peace, ed

well gues I just have to continue to pray to God and just give it up to him. at times in tears, just giving it up to God.

on a happy note burning bush on wen, yes!! get ot thrash and see old friends